The new work is kinda tough, so many things to learn. And one of the senior isn't really helping, being unfriendly also.
It's tough coping with both work and studies, but i guess no pain, no gain. I will try hard to get through this.
I am still at the early stage of the learning curve, when I reach the turning point into the saturation level, I forsee that things will be easier.
Hope all well ends well.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Friday, August 3, 2007
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Hello World!
It has been awhile since my last post.
In between, I have lost count on how many time I am depressed and down.
Been through a tough time with AW. I have been avoiding her. I didn't know that she is attached. I felt embarrassed. Even disheartening is the fact that she gave stupid excuses that she tried to let me know, by showing her wallet to me implicitly. I called her to let me know my thoughts and faced off. It sad to have a good friendship ended up this way. She told me that she's a frank and direct person and the last thing in the world would be to think that she's attached. We used to talked and shared alot of things, and I can't imagine that she wouldn't tell me the basic fact that she's attached after all the sms that I've sent to her. I would expect respect and a courtesy notification about this. I have been quite sensitive on this matter. What's the big deal of telling your admirer that you are attached? I thought that she's matured but apparently she ain't so.
However, post-incident, I think I am ok at the moment as opposed to feel killing myself (literally) last time, but I would still have phobia whenever i see her in class. That's the reason I am avoiding her. Part of me is feeling embarrassed of the things/names I said/called her last time and part of me is angry because she's being a hypocrite.
On other matters, I am leaving MOT next week. Not too excited of new company though, maybe I wish that I could stop working altogether and still have a comfortable income every month. I have been transitioning my work to WY. I purposely mention her here because I want to talk something about her. She's quite a chick and I have been noticing her whenever I see her in the office. I didn't expect that I would get to work with her one day even though I think I have been wishing that. It's fun to work with chick I tell you, and particularly smart chick like her. It's a candy for the eye for sure. And after getting to know her, she's has a nice personality. She's realistic, smart, quite matured and has good sense of fashion. Hmn...someone that I would like to get attached to ;) Hopefully I can meet chicks like her in the new company.
Oh, I just celebrated my 25th birthday a few days ago. Celebrated with CS and PP at Cafe Cafe. Pretty nice place to bring a date but the food is just so so and expensive. Fine dining is not really my taste I guess. Had Foie Gras, Escargot, lamb shak and some dessert with red wine there. Most expensive meal that I ever had. I decided to spend PP on the meal to show my appreciation on handling my resume.
A day before, PP, CC and I has Bak Kut Teh at Klang. Not too bad. We had a great chat over some nice Chinese tea brought by CC.
Oh, went to HK also. It's a great place to visit. It has all the attributes of how a developed country should look like; great buildings, excellent public transportation, beautiful people, freedom, proper urban planning etc. Bought a couple of shirts, loads of souvenirs from Disneyland and a Seiko watch. Nice! Definitely will go back there again in the future.
I decided to major in International Business for my MBA. It would give me more exposure as compared to Finance.
I am inspired by character Ari Gold in the drama Entourage at the moment. I wanted to be like him in getting things done, has fiery and intelligent figure of speech, very confident and positive with high energy. Apparently as the latest episode revealed, he also cares for this kids very much, as oppose to his aggresive and all out style in doing his deal.
I am also inspired by YL who came from a small town in Kangsar and trying to survive in KL. Bought unit trust from her. She bought a house in Cheras and kept it damn clean and tidy.
We have similarity, I am a survival as well ! Whenever I see her, I will remind myself not to give up.
I am also also inspired by WY on her way of approaching works, being persistent on learning and following up on issues and being organized.
I am inspired by James Sun from the Apprentice Season 6 LA, to always differentiate yourself and do something more than others. This is important to excel in one's career. I guess this the strategy adopted by CO in MOT. That's how he got to Lead level in such a short time span.
Well, learnt quite a lot these few months and hopefully I would be able to practise these in my new venture.
Well, life is Great! :)
In between, I have lost count on how many time I am depressed and down.
Been through a tough time with AW. I have been avoiding her. I didn't know that she is attached. I felt embarrassed. Even disheartening is the fact that she gave stupid excuses that she tried to let me know, by showing her wallet to me implicitly. I called her to let me know my thoughts and faced off. It sad to have a good friendship ended up this way. She told me that she's a frank and direct person and the last thing in the world would be to think that she's attached. We used to talked and shared alot of things, and I can't imagine that she wouldn't tell me the basic fact that she's attached after all the sms that I've sent to her. I would expect respect and a courtesy notification about this. I have been quite sensitive on this matter. What's the big deal of telling your admirer that you are attached? I thought that she's matured but apparently she ain't so.
However, post-incident, I think I am ok at the moment as opposed to feel killing myself (literally) last time, but I would still have phobia whenever i see her in class. That's the reason I am avoiding her. Part of me is feeling embarrassed of the things/names I said/called her last time and part of me is angry because she's being a hypocrite.
On other matters, I am leaving MOT next week. Not too excited of new company though, maybe I wish that I could stop working altogether and still have a comfortable income every month. I have been transitioning my work to WY. I purposely mention her here because I want to talk something about her. She's quite a chick and I have been noticing her whenever I see her in the office. I didn't expect that I would get to work with her one day even though I think I have been wishing that. It's fun to work with chick I tell you, and particularly smart chick like her. It's a candy for the eye for sure. And after getting to know her, she's has a nice personality. She's realistic, smart, quite matured and has good sense of fashion. Hmn...someone that I would like to get attached to ;) Hopefully I can meet chicks like her in the new company.
Oh, I just celebrated my 25th birthday a few days ago. Celebrated with CS and PP at Cafe Cafe. Pretty nice place to bring a date but the food is just so so and expensive. Fine dining is not really my taste I guess. Had Foie Gras, Escargot, lamb shak and some dessert with red wine there. Most expensive meal that I ever had. I decided to spend PP on the meal to show my appreciation on handling my resume.
A day before, PP, CC and I has Bak Kut Teh at Klang. Not too bad. We had a great chat over some nice Chinese tea brought by CC.
Oh, went to HK also. It's a great place to visit. It has all the attributes of how a developed country should look like; great buildings, excellent public transportation, beautiful people, freedom, proper urban planning etc. Bought a couple of shirts, loads of souvenirs from Disneyland and a Seiko watch. Nice! Definitely will go back there again in the future.
I decided to major in International Business for my MBA. It would give me more exposure as compared to Finance.
I am inspired by character Ari Gold in the drama Entourage at the moment. I wanted to be like him in getting things done, has fiery and intelligent figure of speech, very confident and positive with high energy. Apparently as the latest episode revealed, he also cares for this kids very much, as oppose to his aggresive and all out style in doing his deal.
I am also inspired by YL who came from a small town in Kangsar and trying to survive in KL. Bought unit trust from her. She bought a house in Cheras and kept it damn clean and tidy.
We have similarity, I am a survival as well ! Whenever I see her, I will remind myself not to give up.
I am also also inspired by WY on her way of approaching works, being persistent on learning and following up on issues and being organized.
I am inspired by James Sun from the Apprentice Season 6 LA, to always differentiate yourself and do something more than others. This is important to excel in one's career. I guess this the strategy adopted by CO in MOT. That's how he got to Lead level in such a short time span.
Well, learnt quite a lot these few months and hopefully I would be able to practise these in my new venture.
Well, life is Great! :)
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Depressed
Yet again, the past week was another depressed week. First mainly because I didn't get the work recognition whereas someone else got it. It was so hurt, when do feel that you deserve it as well. Well, of course, they may not have any good reason to give me because of the things that I am working on now, when it's really demotivating. Iwant it, damn it!
I felt that i am in a slump at my work place right now. In the coming checkpoint, I would wanna voice out all the dissatisfaction that I am facing, no shit about that. Just tell the manager what you want and what you feel. Bloody hell, enough is enough. I have no progress in my career at all, thanks to bad leadership and no good role model to follow. Fuck. I want to be in charge of something!
Going on some tough time in personal relationship as well. It seems that no one is really genuine at all. I got a feeling that AW is using me. Right after the midterm, that's it, no more sms reply etc. That is like so fucking obvious, 180 degrees!
Back to square one, control your desire and thoughts. Who cares about bitches, I know what I am capable of and what I deserve. I don't need this missing, checking phone for sms, worrying and caring kinda shit! Doesn't even have the courtesy to return sms or calls or emails. What the hell does that suppose to mean?
Fuck it! So down, full of anger, and everything.
Keep on working, man. Hardwork is the key to success. Focus and have discipline.
I felt that i am in a slump at my work place right now. In the coming checkpoint, I would wanna voice out all the dissatisfaction that I am facing, no shit about that. Just tell the manager what you want and what you feel. Bloody hell, enough is enough. I have no progress in my career at all, thanks to bad leadership and no good role model to follow. Fuck. I want to be in charge of something!
Going on some tough time in personal relationship as well. It seems that no one is really genuine at all. I got a feeling that AW is using me. Right after the midterm, that's it, no more sms reply etc. That is like so fucking obvious, 180 degrees!
Back to square one, control your desire and thoughts. Who cares about bitches, I know what I am capable of and what I deserve. I don't need this missing, checking phone for sms, worrying and caring kinda shit! Doesn't even have the courtesy to return sms or calls or emails. What the hell does that suppose to mean?
Fuck it! So down, full of anger, and everything.
Keep on working, man. Hardwork is the key to success. Focus and have discipline.
Thursday, May 3, 2007
A start?
We have been in contact quite frequent over the past few days mainly on SMS and over the phone. Could this be a start on something? Her response seems to be different and she even mentioned of going out with me after the midterm. I thought it was all over between me and AW.
Anyhow, lesson learnt, I will try to control my thoughts and desire.
Midterm tests galore coming up soon, 3/5, 7/5 and 13/5. *gulp*
Okay I know, just be steady, be cool and there's nothing to worry about. This is maybe the 184267th times that I had test. So, I should really stop being scared/anxious/nervous about test!!!
I just need to try my best!
Anyhow, lesson learnt, I will try to control my thoughts and desire.
Midterm tests galore coming up soon, 3/5, 7/5 and 13/5. *gulp*
Okay I know, just be steady, be cool and there's nothing to worry about. This is maybe the 184267th times that I had test. So, I should really stop being scared/anxious/nervous about test!!!
I just need to try my best!
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